Poor Girl in a Corporate World

Hey there, it is me, just sitting here before bed after a late evening adventure with one of my best friends. She called me up needing my comfort after dealing with a rough ex friend situation, and that is never easy. Believe me, I have been through it, and I have actually had to do the ex friending (I know it sounds awful, but I have my personal reasons). It put into perspective a lot of things for me, like for example, how much we throw around the term "best friend". I have my friends, acquaintance's, my besties, and my best friends who are pretty much my soul mates. My friends: everyday people, we hang out occasionally, but infrequently, and we keep on touch occasionally. Acquaintance's: people I work with, people I just met, individuals I am forced to be cordial to even though I would rather stick a spork in my eyeball. Besties: close friends at work, talk to a few times a week, Snapchat, and comment on things on social media. Best friends: I would tell these ...

A few weeks ago I received some bad news. A guy did not want to date me because of "he prayed about us and he did not feel it was right". Flash forward to a couple of days ago, I found out that this same guy really did not want to date me because I was "going to be bad with him"... or however the excuse goes. Basically I was too fat for his liking, even though I am pretty sure he is no skinny himself. Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound! After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter ...

" Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them... Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the Dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself... soulless and evil. You will be left with nothing but the worst experiences of your life. " - Harry Potter Wiki  Today I would like to talk about "Office Dementors". Dementors are a fictional character from the Harry Potter series. If you have not read them or watched the movies - then shame on you. For real. Here is a photo of them: In the office place lately, I have experienced a lot of "Dementors", They can be people, experiences, and even your own thoughts. Honestly though, I would like to relate this post to people. Some people bask in the glory of bei...

I continue to discover myself each day, and I feel like I have to shout it to the world. I am a human being, a woman with ambition, a girl with curves, a college graduate, a career woman, a best friend, sister, and a daughter. I am not perfect, I am not all put together, and I am single. I am a single LDS 26 year old... SO WHAT!?! I have learned something in my time, I am sick of apologies.  I am sick of apologizing for things I cannot do, things that are out of my control. I am tired of apologizing for being hurtful, when my intentions are to speak the truth, or speak my mind. Everyone gets to say what they are thinking, so why can't I?  I apologize for things I didn't even do, no more guilt sponge. Life is hard, you don't always get what you want, we all get hurt or hurt someone in time. You don't have to follow the crowd, and it is ok to see the bigger picture. You can be religious, suspicious, and find life delicious (yes rhyme intended).  I am over being this perso...

I promised myself that this blog was only going to be dedicated to the sweet nothings I speak about being a single, young, successful lady. But let me just address a giant elephant in the room ... aka my entire past few weeks! I am a single,  LDS , goal driven, fun seeking lady. I have every desire, want, and need as most 25 year old women want. It would be nice to have the marriage, the house, the kids, the Etsy shop (who am I kidding I have no skills), however - I don't... not yet. And this is not because I don't want these things, and I haven't been trying to date and all that jazz, it just isn't happening. I go to the single wards, I go out with my friends, I am putting myself out there. I am not the most flirtatious individual on the block, but as Tove Lo states  "I have my moments" . In other words, I have a lot to offer, and I have things going for me. I have a degree from Southern Utah University, a really cool job that I love, I live on my own, do...

I have stated on my other blogs, that I am a faithful member of  The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints , so that is just going to be the forewarning on this blog post. Since we are all about the family, you want to be married one day and have your own family. Being a 25 and single young woman of "marrying age", it can be difficult to get a date every now and again. But on my drive home tonight, I got a chance to contemplate the the working gals (and guy?) problem of being single. Here are what (in my opinion, nothing is peer reviewed) are the reasons that I (or a person like me) may be single for a while. And let me tell you what, there is NOTHING wrong with being single if you are working on bettering yourself and fulfilling your dreams. I know I am still young and there are tons of things for me to do! Let me also just put in a snippet that if you are married, you can still do what you want, even if you have some road blocks. All I Think About is Work - Even if ...

For this blog post I would like to talk about Self Image. Your self image can make or break you. If you say you don't have an insecurity, I call your bluff. I do, however, believe that you can look past your insecurities. To say being insecure is a bad quality is an overstatement. Everyone wants to see themselves for what they wish they could be. I am not here to preach to you, because believe me - even in my personal life and my work life - I too have insecurities.  For the past couple of weeks I have been taking a class called "Star Achievement" . I have learned a lot about myself in my professional and personal aspect. I am more confident at work but less confident in my personal life. Sometimes I just want my work life to copy on to my personal life. I think I would be a lot more successful as an individual. Today I learned that you can be. You might have to take some of your work tactics into your personal life. One of my things I LOVE to do, is make lists. I l...