A few weeks ago I received some bad news. A guy did not want to date me because of "he prayed about us and he did not feel it was right". Flash forward to a couple of days ago, I found out that this same guy really did not want to date me because I was "going to be bad with him"... or however the excuse goes. Basically I was too fat for his liking, even though I am pretty sure he is no skinny himself.
Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound!
After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter if I am a size 2 or a size 18 or a size 400!? If you truly did like me, you would not care what was the outside, but what was the inside. I could be a size 2, gorgeous gal, and be a psycho path and kill all my loved ones!!!
I hate that guys use these excuses "I prayed about it" "God told me no" la de freaking da!!
Hello world, I know I am not thin, it is something I am working on. I am dealing with depression, yes I am medicated, no I am not crazy, yes I am okay to admit I have my moments.
BUT here is the kicker - I LET THIS LET ME DOWN!!!! I have never let something ruin me so badly! Why would I let ONE ignorant, self righteous, piece of nothing let me feel like I am the dog shit on someone's shoe? Definitely not my style.
So... here is why YOUR opinion of me does not matter to me at all:
1. I am educated
2. I have a B.S. Degree
3. I have a fabulous job.
4. I do not live with my parents.
5. I am sexy
6. I am smart
7. I am kind
8. I have amazing friends
9. I am confident
10. This list goes on so you might as well just know I do not care about your opinion!
To all the men (and women) out there, get over yourself. You level 4 seeking level 10 good for nothings! You will feel the karma bite you so hard in the ass you won't know what hit you.
Until next time...
Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound!
After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter if I am a size 2 or a size 18 or a size 400!? If you truly did like me, you would not care what was the outside, but what was the inside. I could be a size 2, gorgeous gal, and be a psycho path and kill all my loved ones!!!
I hate that guys use these excuses "I prayed about it" "God told me no" la de freaking da!!
Hello world, I know I am not thin, it is something I am working on. I am dealing with depression, yes I am medicated, no I am not crazy, yes I am okay to admit I have my moments.
BUT here is the kicker - I LET THIS LET ME DOWN!!!! I have never let something ruin me so badly! Why would I let ONE ignorant, self righteous, piece of nothing let me feel like I am the dog shit on someone's shoe? Definitely not my style.
So... here is why YOUR opinion of me does not matter to me at all:
1. I am educated
2. I have a B.S. Degree
3. I have a fabulous job.
4. I do not live with my parents.
5. I am sexy
6. I am smart
7. I am kind
8. I have amazing friends
9. I am confident
10. This list goes on so you might as well just know I do not care about your opinion!
To all the men (and women) out there, get over yourself. You level 4 seeking level 10 good for nothings! You will feel the karma bite you so hard in the ass you won't know what hit you.
Until next time...
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