Poor Girl in a Corporate World

A few weeks ago I received some bad news. A guy did not want to date me because of "he prayed about us and he did not feel it was right". Flash forward to a couple of days ago, I found out that this same guy really did not want to date me because I was "going to be bad with him"... or however the excuse goes. Basically I was too fat for his liking, even though I am pretty sure he is no skinny himself. Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound! After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter