Poor Girl in a Corporate World

A few weeks ago I received some bad news. A guy did not want to date me because of "he prayed about us and he did not feel it was right". Flash forward to a couple of days ago, I found out that this same guy really did not want to date me because I was "going to be bad with him"... or however the excuse goes. Basically I was too fat for his liking, even though I am pretty sure he is no skinny himself. Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound! After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter ...

" Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them... Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the Dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself... soulless and evil. You will be left with nothing but the worst experiences of your life. " - Harry Potter Wiki  Today I would like to talk about "Office Dementors". Dementors are a fictional character from the Harry Potter series. If you have not read them or watched the movies - then shame on you. For real. Here is a photo of them: In the office place lately, I have experienced a lot of "Dementors", They can be people, experiences, and even your own thoughts. Honestly though, I would like to relate this post to people. Some people bask in the glory of bei...

I continue to discover myself each day, and I feel like I have to shout it to the world. I am a human being, a woman with ambition, a girl with curves, a college graduate, a career woman, a best friend, sister, and a daughter. I am not perfect, I am not all put together, and I am single. I am a single LDS 26 year old... SO WHAT!?! I have learned something in my time, I am sick of apologies.  I am sick of apologizing for things I cannot do, things that are out of my control. I am tired of apologizing for being hurtful, when my intentions are to speak the truth, or speak my mind. Everyone gets to say what they are thinking, so why can't I?  I apologize for things I didn't even do, no more guilt sponge. Life is hard, you don't always get what you want, we all get hurt or hurt someone in time. You don't have to follow the crowd, and it is ok to see the bigger picture. You can be religious, suspicious, and find life delicious (yes rhyme intended).  I am over being this perso...

I promised myself that this blog was only going to be dedicated to the sweet nothings I speak about being a single, young, successful lady. But let me just address a giant elephant in the room ... aka my entire past few weeks! I am a single,  LDS , goal driven, fun seeking lady. I have every desire, want, and need as most 25 year old women want. It would be nice to have the marriage, the house, the kids, the Etsy shop (who am I kidding I have no skills), however - I don't... not yet. And this is not because I don't want these things, and I haven't been trying to date and all that jazz, it just isn't happening. I go to the single wards, I go out with my friends, I am putting myself out there. I am not the most flirtatious individual on the block, but as Tove Lo states  "I have my moments" . In other words, I have a lot to offer, and I have things going for me. I have a degree from Southern Utah University, a really cool job that I love, I live on my own, do...