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Why Your Opinion of me Does not Matter to me...

A few weeks ago I received some bad news. A guy did not want to date me because of "he prayed about us and he did not feel it was right". Flash forward to a couple of days ago, I found out that this same guy really did not want to date me because I was "going to be bad with him"... or however the excuse goes. Basically I was too fat for his liking, even though I am pretty sure he is no skinny himself.

Now in that moment, I seemed a little upset. Why does God not want me to date you, and why the hell does it matter if I am bigger than your typical girl? You are no Adam Levine yourself! It was devastating. Worst part is, I am going through the hardest part of depression lately, and you have no idea that this is happening to me. Just pour some salt into that wound!

After this moment, I went around wondering - why do I feel like I am being judged? I am not stupid, I know I have gained the weight, I KNOW that this is a problem in the dating world. Why does it matter if I am a size 2 or a size 18 or a size 400!? If you truly did like me, you would not care what was the outside, but what was the inside. I could be a size 2, gorgeous gal, and be a psycho path and kill all my loved ones!!!

I hate that guys use these excuses "I prayed about it" "God told me no" la de freaking da!!

Hello world, I know I am not thin, it is something I am working on. I am dealing with depression, yes I am medicated, no I am not crazy, yes I am okay to admit I have my moments.

BUT here is the kicker - I LET THIS LET ME DOWN!!!! I have never let something ruin me so badly! Why would I let ONE ignorant, self righteous, piece of nothing let me feel like I am the dog shit on someone's shoe? Definitely not my style.

So... here is why YOUR opinion of me does not matter to me at all:

1. I am educated
2. I have a B.S. Degree
3. I have a fabulous job.
4. I do not live with my parents.
5. I am sexy
6. I am smart
7. I am kind
8. I have amazing friends
9. I am confident
10. This list goes on so you might as well just know I do not care about your opinion!

To all the men (and women) out there, get over yourself. You level 4 seeking level 10 good for nothings! You will feel the karma bite you so hard in the ass you won't know what hit you.

Until next time...

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